meaning i still do not have a desk.

tonight tommy and i went to the berlin and beyond film festivel at the castro,

we saw "Gegen die Wand" or "head on" which is the u s title. i think the actual translation is. against the wall

it was really good. it was hot, it was totally worth paying for.
tommy still didnt put out.
but do i even want him to?

in a wayi feel like i'm just half hartedly going through the motions.

but at night, sometimes, i really want him.

i have a lot to say. i feel like i wanted to get down something really profound and beautiful.
but the words are fumbling too slow from my hands to the keyboard.

i have lost time in 10 min increments twice this week.
there was a really really hot guy on bart tonight. i think he had an accordian.

i bought a gold membership.

my ear is really swollen and hard. i'm a little scared.
i just want to smoke a cigarette and go to bed.

on a good note one of the songs they play in head on is i feel you by depeche mode. it was a song i have been searching for forever.