i woke up at three pm today and promptly watched mutant x as i do every sunday.... it is followed by buffy and the urge to be late to work is overwelming... i dont let it get me down... two people pought me apple juice today and it was sweet.... one was for a favor i did and one was an apology.... they were both the kind that come in the glass bottles with the leavves embossed on the top.... the kind that goes pop when you twist off the metal cap... i love it i wish i could remember its name.... i miss ron... he is in london for a year.there is a new dude at work... he seemes nice.. he is a friend of a co workers... he commutes a long way... i dont see why... it might wear on him... it wore on that girl... she ended up just not going to school.....

if i wrote this diary as if i had a secret ... saying things with out explaining i think it might be a lot more interesting... you always want to know the people who don't give you information... you always neglect the ones that are always there... what happened to loving the ones you can depend on. my short short fingernails are now bright purpleypink blue.. a shimmery gossomer color.

i found something special the other day...

i can totally tell that my hair is dyed... others cannot..

i went to china town and found beach mats for fucking 2 bucks... IKEA selles them for fucking 12 bucks or something equally insane... i need to sleep but i am debating if i should heat up some milk first or get up later after i toss and turn and do it then.

so i did it and now i'm also downloading love like this by faith evans this milk is fucking hot...

i love this song: As the World Falls Down by David Bowie it is off the Labyrinth soundtrack. i had the biggest crush on david bowie in that movie.... *sigh* the hair the voice the power... and deep down underneath it all he was just a scared powerless warlock....

aaahhhhh the frothy goodness of foam. shit i gotta go to bed now

i'm just not tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11