how would you commit suicide?

i'm watching magnolia. i think it is stressing me out a little. i'm painting my nails black. with white tips.... they look crappy.....

i'm disapointed in them they have let me down.

i'm tired. and a little drunk i've had a few gin and tonics and a bunch of caffine. i feel off i think that this movie is getting to me. i dont remember if it gets better... i hope it gets better. grown ups are fucked up to kids.

there is so much pain in this movie..... i just want to be happy. i feel like .... i never ever want to do coke again.....

oh yeah... i would never commit suicide by drowning. it would be to pinful and scary.