white russins.
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you know... i think things are beginning to look up... i did a few things today that are making that happen. 1 i had a compulsion to call dude and ask him to come to this thing tonight. instead of waiting and coming up with all of this shit about how i'm just so stupid and ugly and horrible so he would say no. i just called him... and asked... he was quite polite and said he had plans but when he found out what was up he would call.... i was so proud of myself!!! then i got all of my shit done... packed... cleaned my room... went to visit pat-a-rack at reel ...borrowed this cd and uploaded it..... and i got the compulsion to go see austin powers...goldmember..... so i called maren and we went... and even though we sat in the second or third row. the movie totally rocked!!!!!!!!! so even though i was not expecting dude to call if he wasn't going to go..... he totally called.... that is so awesome..... he said he was just staying in but i bet he was with a girl....i bet he has girls all over him ... like ants on a peice of cheese. its cool though... i think he is just being polite because i'm a fan.... its interesting though, i would gladly pay him for his stuff but he gives me copies... which is rad ... totally rad because i'm totally broke... but i still want to pay him back in some way.... i feel like because he is an independant artist i'm in a way stealing from him.... i guess thats where the movies come in. where was i .... oh yeah... it was totally awesome that he called because i was expecting the asshole thing... if i'm not going to go... i'm not going to call and he totally suprised me... just because all guys fucking do that. ... friends... not friends... well all guys i know... i've just never met a guy as nice as him... so i'm totally confused..... what ever... i'm fucking leaving!!! tomarrow!!!! unless you cant tell i'm a bit tipsy... it was a party tonight they didnt even start the thing until like 1:30 there were pina coladas and white russins on tap... and the white russins were fucking strong.. i had three little cups... little water cups and i was fucking tipsy as hell. dave is so cute! he is going into the air force... i swear to god... its sad... and there were so many people there. i met this one guy rusty from jupiter... he was so friendly... and tony was a little too friendly... dave, robert, gray, art, maren,patrick, martin, paul, john, there were more girls but i dont know most of their names... i seem to have lost most of my girls... i feel sorta sad about that....guys just arent girls... even when you need them to be... i'm just sort of rambling on here. i cant sleep right now.... i knew he wasnt going to come... but i'm hoping he was just busy and it wasnt me ..... its sorta a good thing because i dont think i could have sat through another big lebowski... i mean i love that fucking movie dont get me wrong... i just have seen it so many fucking times.... so many times.... i think that even if dude wouldnt go out with me... i want to be the type of girl that that type of guy would want to be with.... i want a guy that speaks my language... oh yeah i think this woman was trying to hit on me tonight at the screening. it threw me for a loop... do people think i'm a lesbian? i'm sorry about the spelling i'll fix it sometime soon. this time tomarrow i'll either be on a plane or in london!!!!! yeah!!!!!-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
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