I'm used to it by now ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is elliot smith folk rock? i got this mix from a friend and i just have been listening to this song over and over. its called Pitseleh which i guess means little boy, although i dont know how to pronounce it. today i walked around as though in a dream... until i had my coffe... i feel weird with out coffee now. i think i should stop taking it. then i kicked it with that girl. it was nice we rented breakfast of champions and went to hilltop. i got some really cute underthings. a cotton bra... sturdy. cute underwear. i want to call them panties but i think that sounds to girly.that girl said something really great today. she said, refering to the baby. "I just wish he would come now. It's like i have a baby, but I don't. I don't have to dress him or feed him, he's all ready to go." i thought that was funny. part of me doesn't know my place in her life anymore. i mean, i feel the need to be a kid with her. to continue to grow up as if we were still adolecents. but we are fucking twenty one i know it is still young and everything but .... sometimes i feel so fucking OLD. i hear from people that it is just because in the city... or something like it... you just grow up faster... but i dont now... sometimes i think it was alll the fucking acid we did in eighth grade. its weird because she is in recovery and i keep thinking that she doesnt do stuff because she is pregnant. i feel shitty because i think i make it worse for her. on the other hand i havent done any illegal drugs in almost seven months that boy... where should i begin? Pitseleh I'll tell you why I don't want to know where you are I've got a joke I've been dying to tell you a silent kid is looking down the barrel to make the noise that I kept so quiet I kept it from you, pitseleh I'm not what's missing from your life now I could never be the puzzle pieces they say that god makes problems just to see what you can stand before you do as the devil pleases and give up the thing you love no one deserves it the first time I saw you I knew it would never last I'm not half what I wish I was I'm so angry I don't think it'll ever pass and I was bad news for you just because I never meant to hurt you by elliot smith THIS SONG IS SO PRETTY AND SOOTHING TO LISTEN TO, FIND IT!!!!!! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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