Primula Bumbleroot of Haysend
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i have a papaer due tomarrow and i havent even started it... i'm losing track of everything.... i feel like this wave
this piticular wave. is trying to engulf me with it's crisp white and blue slush. its 6:00 and i think i am now going crazy.... don't drink an entire coke at 4 in the morning... you should just understand on an inner level that it is not a good idea... infact it is a shitty idea. there was this crazy thing that happened today.... i was in one of the shittiest moods in the world... i did not get the permotion... which i am possibly ok with... i do need to spend more time at my school work.. but a dude i think will do a good job got the job... and asshole that should never have power over anyone did not get the job... but on another level ... i was a little angry dude even applied... he already has a job and i just dont think its fair... i dont think he even needs the money.. and he defenatly doesnt need the experiance... whatever... life isn't fair.... i t is a bit releaving but i cant help but be disapointed. on a personal level i am having friend problems.... it weird when you think you are friends with someone only to find out that they think you are lower than them... on any level... you want to be like.... " listen BITCH you ain't got nothing on me so step the fuck down.... what about you is so insecure that you have to put YOURSELF on a pedestal? ..... personally i'm starting to remember why i hate girls..... they are just soooo fucking emotional....
and not even in the pms sense... i cant really explain it but just like a really evil person is someone who trys to be good but is just evil all the time... a really shitty person is someone who is constantly trying to mask how complicated they are... i sould have known... i had a warning with previous experiance but not with this piticular.
i've decided to start doing coke again... i'm actually going to try to get some... its a step in an interesting direction... my life is going to pieces but i have noone to blame but my self so i'm going to start doing drugs so i can blame it on them... hhhhmmm... lets see how bad it can get when i go into it with open arms.
oh yeah the title of this entry is my hobbit name
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