on the other hand... hawaii has been beautiful. ha! it is raining in oakland! hahahaha and it is so beautiful and sunny here. to marrow my partents and brother are going to the war boat memorial ww2 thing... ihave no desire... i dont beilieve in that war.... we fucked the japanese over almost as much as the germans fucked the jewish... i mean no killing but discrimination, fear,hatred, stuff like that. tomarrow my sister and i are going to tan...... yeah!!!! oh yeah... tomarrow is also my mothers birthday..... we are going to janes house ... she lives on the island. and then to benihana.... i could write whole pages about jane... or at least an entry... but i will save that for later.....

the first night we were here i had a dream about dude..... he was wearing a long fitted... think david bowie ripped london flag coat.... black and white checkerd coat... it felt like a dolphins skin... did i mention that i got to swim with dolphins? one carried/dragged me around the lagoon. it was fun! so anyways... he was being all kinds of nice.... and let me feel his jacket... he kept flirting with me but i couldnt think of anything to say... i think it was because a someone who will remain nameless told me she invited him to her party.... oh.... i wish i was beautiful... being around so many females in string bikini's is doing nothing for my self esteem. i'm all tukered out now..