the othernight i watched drumline with one of my new crushes

....... and other people... it wasnt like we even sat next to eachother... but we chatted and he likes a lot of the authors i like...... hhhhhhmmmmm does this sound fimilliar:? i hope it turns out better. i'm actually really happy right now... but really sick of being alone.....

i havent felt like, good about what is going on in my life in a while so i'm kinda wondering what it is.... is it really the meds? or is it something else?? who knows.......... i'm just afraid of what will happen when it is over. i think my lip in infected... i have a staff meeting today...... i might be late.... i want to sleep... i had a really crazy dream i was kicking it with shattuck people at the shattuck... and i ha to deal with bob who was acting crazy... and following me around and acting really psycho and then i bashed his head repetedly into the wall till part of his skull colappsed and he bled all over. then i was playing gameboy and i ecame an assasin and though i had to save these girls but i was a double agent and i actually killed them... it was really long and rreally weird... abiento