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yeah.... so shit has been going really really crazy....i am finally all moved into my house.... living with all guys is great....except they are totally lazy... but there is always someone to talk to....... sometimes i'm afraid i'm going to end up like cassady...... but that is another story.... so the other day dude screened a movie and i wanted him to sit next to me but he went and sat next to maren.... he totally dissed me....... i was angry.... really just kinda stung..... but you know.... that saying ...hell has no wrath like a woman scorned... so i left right after with maren....not thanking him or anything.... and we are ewalking along....and i just get this weird creepy feeling.... but i keep telling myself... dont look behind you dont look behind you..... i think i didnt want to know..... so we are almost at her house and i turn around and glance back and dude had followed us!!! well her...... i mean he is totally and compleately and crazily obsessed with her.... it creeped me out i was totally scared i thought he was going to fucking kill me.... i mean i was sooooo freaked... i had been talking shit about him the whole way..... and he was right behind us,........ it was creepy .. so then i see him the next day and he acts like nothing is diffrent ..... i mean what am i supposed to say? dude, i totally saw you following us last night, jumping behind a tree isnt much of a hiding place? ...... i think the thing that really creeped me out is that he didnt say... hey guys wait up.... let me walk you home..... or anything like that..... maren isnt creeped out by it at all... she says he did it because he was afraid of rejection..... but i dont know..it makes me feel weird twords her... i dont know how to tell her...... she leads him on... she totally plays up to him and fucks with his head...... she knows that she will never be with him but he doesnt know that..... i just.... it makes me sick and i dont know if i can look at her the same anymore... i mean... i hella love her but i know what it is like to be scott..... she treats him the way thatboy treated me..... and i swear to god i want no part in it.
i'm just really confused right now.
i think that things are going to go good this year though.... i have compleate optimism.......
the othernight i had a really cool dream that i met thomyorke.... he was totally cool and when i asked him if he would sign my poster he said... dont you want me to sign the other poster the one that the rest of the band signed? i was so flustered
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