i think i have packed all that i need to, i hope i have packed all that i need to.

i'm getting excited. i cant believe it. sooon sooooon nice hot tropix.....

work was short and sweet today. dinner was good!!!!! honey glazed ham with mustard. mac and cheese. beans and mushrooms, sweet potato, or squash? and sparkling apple juice. keyon came. i think everyone got along.

arragont bastard has still not responded... i think i need a new cuter name for him.... i imagine that i will go to hawaii and get some action. come back and tell him that i want to be his rebound gal.... then have him laugh and spit in my face... BAM!!! all of the hawaii high ego making, booty power gone. why oh why dont i have a life?

training day is fucked up! this movie is dark

once when i was kicking it with thatgirl and the getto crew one of them was in a wheelchair he kept getting really really high and challenging people to fights... he was like sit down man sit down with me and i'll take you..... a few min before i saw snoop dog say something to that extent in this movie..... there are all of these un written codes of conduct on the street . most wont try to battle a guy in a wheelchair but will even out the odds a little by sitting down... i feel a strange sort of respect for something like that.

on the other hand. getting your babies mamma hooked on heroin and then putting her out on the track makes me think twice.

this movie is trying to turn out white rich frat boys. opening the eyes of the middle class suburbans.... its like sammy explaining to me that only white girls would hug anothers boyfriend infront of her... or even at all.

i'm rambling.

i feel so fucked up i'm sure that if i try to read this later it wont even make sense to me.

i had a dream thismorning that arragont bastard wrote me back and i didnt even care.... that much..... i felt empowered and was listening to an aaliyah song. it was a mix of all of her songs but the part that stuck in my head was " more than a woman" i was awoken by eliska and put more than a woman on and danced for a bit. it was nice. it's a good feeling relizing that you dont truly need anyone. this time tomarrow i will be waking up to go to the airport..... that or just getting ready to go. i'm not really sure if i'll go to sleep early. i really need to sleep now.