aaahhh... tommy... tommy tune!

i want to sleep with him... and i'm not even sure that i mean sex... i just want to hold him and fall asleep with him in my arms .... he is so warm and huggable.

the other day the cute cute cute guy from the music store down the street came into the theater to see lost in translation.... sooo fucking hot... he has this shy boyish charm type of quality to him.... but he isnt traditional shy boy type... there is this undrecurrent of agressive ness. i think... and eliska picked up on it. i am at that stage of tired/wired. my limbs are cold but my core is warm... my heater doesnt seem to be heating the room... i have a huge zit on my face and i am too lazy to get up and take a shower.

aaarrrgggghhhhh..........

why is it possible for a writtr to be un observant ? arent they supposed to live for that shit?

i just want to be warm and snuggling with tommy

i feel for him i think he is having a really hard time right now. he and his girl are on a break and i think he is really struggling with it.. i know he loves her and i wonder ( and i totally might be thinking way to much of myself) if i need to sacrifice our friendship and do him so he can relize he loves her.

i wish he would just come to the conclusion on his own... i like being tommy's 2nd grade gal. it makes me feel warm and fuzzy. ooh god this mix tape rocks.... seriously it is the best one i have ever gotten... even better ... oh well... it doesnt top nat's kitchen performace of birds of america but that isnt really a mix tape. it does hawever topp thatgirls mix tape with horace andy, 50 million, hickey and even yogurt covering the buffy theme song....

fuck that reminds me... i saw thatgirls ex boyfriend today and he walked by me like he didnt even know me.... he was meeting this girl and i guess he was late because she was all... " i've been waiting here for an hour." when i got over the puzzlement of him walking by me.... we kicked it for like 3 years...straight. i laughed out loud at the situation... still pulling the same shiit.... and his teeth are still totally fucked up. i heard he was drunk on telegraph and rode his bike into a parking meter. what a putz.

it was a deep laugh.... and it felt good... even with the psycho looks i was getting from people.