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i am using a new toothbrush. it is a cross action oral b. it is the sweetest thing to have ever touched my teeth. before he left jude succeded in addicting me to baking soda peroxied toothpaste. beautiful. lastnight i had a weird dream. i was in a mall/hotel/dorm/arcade with atticus and micheal. micheal and i had a unspoken agreement that we were both into eachother. i was supposed to meet micheal in this large room with huge windows and a kick ass view. i had to go through the arcade to meet him. while walking through the arcade to the stairs i saw thatboy. he was very friendly. it was like old times. we talked and smiled and it was.....good......... he used my shoulder as an armrest like he used to. mike saw us. he freaked out. totally insanely jelouse. he wouldnt talk to me anymore. called everthing off. atticus took his side. everyone was against me. i tried to explain that we were only friends. that that is just the way we act with eachother. but he didnt,wouldnt,couldnt listen. i went back to thatboy and he was with a girl. i relized somewhere that it wasnt really thatboy. it was a vidieo game of him that he was playing at natalie's babydaddys house. if you looked closely at his skin you could not only tell that it was pixilated but see that it was way too smooth. i woke up relizing that my jelosey of seeing gregory with the cute girl is totally unfounded and stupid. and that i really have lost thatboy to the world of drugs. it waws a rough morning.i dont know if i am tired or just truly fucked n the head but. all day i have just either really really been inside my head. or really really been outside of my head.
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