hehehehehehehe i'm listening to "private eyes" by hall and oates i feel like clapping and dancing around my room.... i'm not going to though its late....

well, dude finally met me... i have very mixed feelings about it. because there are just so many things....

good and bad.....

hes is totally cute!

he seemed totally laid back

he brought tropical skittles...... which totally rock

he brought me a cd. he totally was chill and rolled with the punches.... it was neat because even if i never hear from him again he was totally polite and he has to get kudos for that.

he gets really excited when he talks about music....

he gets major props for showing up alone... even though he had the option of back up... i would have been scared as hell and probabbly chickened out.

*******new crispin glover download.... clowny clown clown...*****

i just wish i was at the point with someone where if i wanted to i could lay my head on their shoulder whan i'm sleepy.

keyon slept over that night and said... there are no answers now... no answers tonight.... you will get some answers when you interact next... be it e-mail, phone, street, but no matter what, not all questions will be answered. ever.... unless you ask bluntly....

...... but i don't wanna....... there is soo much risk involved...

so most of this list doesnt make sense..... but i needed to get it out so i stop thinking about it.

ooooohhhhhhh i am going to have a hangover tomarrow......

gin gin gin gin gin gin gin gin gin bombay gin gin gin gin gin gin gin gin

i'm proud of my self.. i didnt fuck up to bad.... i dont think..... sharon said if you fuck up to bad just say... sorry i'm just really attracted to you and its making me stupid.

what ever i'm sick of stressing the next few day will tell me weather i'm stupid and sad or happy and risk taking... for the rest of my life.

on the other hand today was nice... i had a really good time sitting around my house. then i chatted at the bus stop with this woman who is always there....we talked about how i got hit by the bus... and she sorta felt me up while sayiing it was to late for me but next time i would know just to lie down and wait for the ambulance.

then i took the bus to work.... work was fun maren came and then when we closed i bought some gin. and we went to this trailer screening at the cal. alll of these old trailers from the early 80's and there was pizza and baha fresh. i was sooooo drunk.... other dude showed up.... he was just walking by....... totally cute..... but twords the end i got real sleepy.... i'm sleepy now. if i wasnt downloading all of these fucking songs maybe i would go to sleep.....

clowny clown clown is pretty funny.

g'night