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i can't sleep.... i need to get to class mega early tomarrow so i can try to hunt down this fucking english class...... oh beautiful beautiful night... is this how it begins again... loneliness and pills? but it is under diffrent circumstances. that boy has escaped the evil witch. but is it for me the frog woman? or for ghetto princess? or is it for himself? has that boy actually left the evil queen for his own simple reasons? who knows... who ever really knows what goes on in that boys head..... everyone tells me that i know him the best... that i am a "best friend" but what do they know? i doubt that boy would say that.... i dont think of myself in that position... there are just some people you feel really comfortable with and some people you dont. there are some people that will say things that you are thinking and somepeople that cant get you for the life of them. that gal got me... or i got her..... keyon gets me.. and i get him.... maren gets me.... or sees straight through me... and i lover her for it. but that boy? does he get me? do i get him? for the longest time i thought that we got eachother so well that it was ment to be... i thik i even wasted 1 and a half years on it but now... i dont know.... i think it is because i am always looking for a connecton... i just cant let things be... watch them unfurl..... but i cant do that because i need the upper hand... i have to play to win.... i have to play to win.. its way to soon for anything... i dont want to be rebound gal.... timing is of the essence and i bet i wont even see him again if he quits his job.... still.... today he was being really sweet.. there was an aspect that bearly came out before. a giving aspect that i had not seen it was sweet and un complaining .he is just a dude, trying to live his life. what i cant figure out is ... is his life overly complicated with statagies and such or is his life really really simple. good things to think about as i drift off to sleep... hopefully i will have good dreams.... oh yeah i saw the others the other night if you havent seen it go see it... damn that movie is fucking creepy.
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