like, oh my god!
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i am really really fucking angry with myself.... i have no fucking self control.. it totally sucks ass. i didnt go to school today and i have all these papers due. i just dont have any self restraint. everything is catching up with me... usually this is the point where i do something like, start using hella drugs or something but i just dont even want to go down that path... i feel like the only way i will be able to get through everything is by moving far far away. i need to go somewhere i dont know anyone. so i can just do my own thing and not have all of this tempting, tempting. but i wonder if i could really do it. be so fucking lonely. what if things get bad? i would have no support systemon the other hand maren, that girl, and i went to this sneak preview of "sweet home alabama" it was funny because they were using the sneak as a focus group so there were a bunch of sorority gals. shit on a brick i have never seen or heard such a stampede as, say 300 college age girls waiting, clawing and getting into a sneak preview of a movie.... i mean shit talk about background noise. and the flesh... jeezee i think you have to dress like a skank just to be considered..... hhh,mmmmm is that jelousey talking??? i dont think so..... why, why would you ever want to belong to one of those things??
one of the girls near us was from alabama... and when a house shot came up she was like... there's my house, then everytime something happened ... about the south, if it was a joke, a crack, a sigh, a bird crapping in a tree, she gave a little reaction. aaaaaaaarrrrrggggggggghhhhh i hate it when cal is in session. i shudder to think that i am actually trying to transfer to it.
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