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what i should have said is what do you mean my next boyfriend should be really good at oral sex? what do you mean????? jeezeeeeeeee.... i think keyon knows me better than anyone else... he is the one that tells me this..... after i told him that i am trying to come to grips with the fact that i have just discovered that i thinkk thin is beautiful..... skinny is beautiful..... he says to me when did you come to this conclusion? i said 2nd grade. he says when you were seven? i say i guess.he says.. you are letting a seven year old rule your life? you are letting a seven year old tell you that you arent good enough for the things you want because you arent thin? you are sabatoging the things you want when you start to get them because you dont think you are good enough to get what you want... because you hate yourself...... and you then dont get what you want... and also when you dont get what you want... you point and say.... see i nither deserve or get what i want......... to that i said... keyon when did you get so smart? and whas about to say now flip your hair... when he said i know.... now i'm flipping my hair.....
we were talking today about how we dont remember how we met or when we started hangingout.... all we remember is B.K and A.K. wich for him is before kenny and after kenny and for me is before keyon and after keyon...
i need to read my book for english but part of me wants food....... arg this horrible circle.
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