well it has been a silly freaky week. i�ve been flirting up a storm and i have never felt so fucking ugly. left and right and left and right. today in the grocery store i found myself chatting with a scary/fine boy about clam juice. CLAM JUICE! i think he thought i was trying to pick him up. i think his girlfriend thought i was trying to pick him up cos she rushed right over. but i wasn�t , not that i would have minded . i was just hyper and MSG�d up and with keyon, choosing apples. when i turn around and see a guy staring at the clam juice with this horrified look on his face. i had to comment because i had noticed it when walking in and felt the same way. i mean hello? clam juice in the fruit section?? eeeeeewwwwwww.........

so back to me. i have a crush on a theater boy. i liked him before but he had a girlfriend. now he doesn't and i cant really read him. i asked him to make me a mix tape and in trade i would make him a cd. we have exchanged said mixes and he says mine rocks and i think his rocks but now i have no idea what to do. i sent him a message asking him to ....um...... maybe hang out with me but i haven't gotten a response. aaarrrgggghhhh i hate waiting. i hope this doesn't blow up in my face......

oh my god!!!!! nancy said that i will be trained in booth full time!!! hello raise!!!! wwwhhhhoooo hhhhhoooo...... she said it would be because we might loose keyon... it makes me sad because then it means i won�t get the albany chief of staff but it makes me happy because it means that i will have a nice change from floor staff.

sweet sweet.

see what it really is is that i�m scared to open up. every time that i have something bad has happened. demo, cheated. Katherine, we aren't friends anymore it totally changed everything. chepe, ha! what a fuck head. kalif. what a noodle. that would have only ended in drug addiction.

i just want a nice normal guy to kick it with and love. to have fun with. to keep me warm at night. and to cuddle with.

my roommates and i are having a eighties prom party this weekend. i�m excited!!!! hopefully it will be fun . but i�m a little worried.

wish me luck not only with the party but with the job interview.