i relized tosay that my roomates have never really seen me in a bad mood. i mean.... not really. sure i admit once in a while i've been bitchy but they have never really seen me loose it. i really wanted to tonight. i just feel that sammy has become very inconsiderate. she is about to get us kicked out of our apartment. she owes our landloard a large sum of money. and the fact that she hasnt paid her rent in like, 4 months doesnt seem to bother her at all..... aaaaarrrrrgggghhhhh it is ssssooo FUCKING AGRIVATING. i cant stand it. so she comes home tonight drunk and loud and sloppy. and asks me to go to walgreens with her. i say no and she brings up the fact that i ate her pesto.... i tell her that i asked her if i could eat it, if i buy her another jar. which she agreed to. she says ...oh.... i forgot.....

she is always forgetting.......FUCKING STONERS...... i dont think it is even that. i think she just doent care.

then she goes around... yelling and slamming doors... when she is just going around the apartment. and eliska is sleeping and i .... i know that it is eliskas right to get mad but i know that if i was sleeping i woould just rather lie in bed than get up and try to argue with a drunk ass person. see... i already forgot... i'm trying to be APATHETIC about everything.

i went to jupiter and sat with billy and lelie while they had beers. we chatted. it was nice... i feel like they (all the guys) just sorta dropped me off of the radar. it turns out billy has also been listening to old high school music... maybe i am not the only one going through a crash couse in the life and times of (insertname here) 's hischool days.... does that make sense????? aaarrrggghhhhhhhhhhhh

i rreally just feel agitated..... i woke up with a huge knot in my neck.

i went to see arragont bastard tonight at his work... it was a dropp off and chat. pretty boring and pointless and boring....

i like spreading the love. i especially like spreading the love to people i bearly know that make me smile....

goodnight

oh yeah.... if you like funny comidies and um..... ravers.... watch human traffic.... it is a uk movie that fucking rocks my world. it is soooo good.... makes me want a hit of e though.