too much ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i feel crazy. jittery and numbly and fubbly crazy.i saw chris like 5 times today. i even called his work once but hung up after the first ring because the butter flies in my stomache were making me feel icky. i am such a fucking chicken. i just dont want to do anything to upset this beautiful balance that i have. he is just so cute. even if he dyes his gray away and has sweat stains on his jacket. i just get all nervouse and awkward. aarrrrgggghhhhh.... action must take place. but then will i just be even more depressed? i've come up with a few diffrent things to say . "hey chris, if i was gonna ask you out, would that make being around you akward later?" " hey chris, i was thinking we could go out somewhere sometime so i could get to know you better." "hey, i could love you, in the biblical sense." "hey , um, yeah bye" you see any of these things are possible. any of them are likely. i am so fucking stupid. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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