i seem to always end up pining over some totally socially retarted boy that would only love skinny cute french girls........ why cant i be pretty like the french girls?

and why is it always some sick obsession? some crazy fanatic tick that keeps clicking in my mind.

i have givin up on chris because tosay as tommy and i were walking to work from bongo burger chris saw me and walked inside. what a fucking prick. i cant believe he doesnt even have the balls to tell me to my face that he doesnt want to go out with keyon and me . ..... a bunch of cowerdly bull shit if you ask me. and this totally comming on a day when i was already feeling so shitty.

keyon and i went to see the people at everest properties... which used to be reddy realty..... they totally tried to screw us over too.... they tried to tell us that there were no pets allowed ... even though they had told keyon it was ok. ... so then we go see the apartment and it pretty much sucked major ass. the location and style were fucking awesome ..... but the akwardness of the layout was just weird. they had flourescent lighting in the livingroom for peaches sake, .... needless to say i was not amused.... now i know what you are thinking.... that is what we get for dealing with child molesters... but peaches christ! we were desprate.

it's just... he is so damn cute........ with his little boish mannerisms and crinkley eyes...

NO! NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO

I HATE HIM NOW.

thats the way he wants it.

thats the way he'll get it.

i'm so jumbled... and every thing is so exausted....